Wednesday, October 13, 2010

At Peace

I started reading a new book last night by Karen Kingsbury called Unlocked. It is about a boy with Autism. One of the lines in the book really spoke to my heart. It was this: My child, you don't have to fight this battle...stand firm and you will see the deliverance. The battle is mine, not yours. I have been thinking for sometime now how for the last three years I have spent so much time searching for the next best thing that will make Luke "better." Some things have worked, some have not. I think I have come to the point in this journey where it is time to hand it all over to God. I know in a second if it is His will, He can chose to make Luke better. He knows the plans he has for Luke, and I have said from day one of this journey...they are GOOD! There is no doubt in my mind there was a reason that gate fell on Luke that day, and someday I will know why. So with that being said, I am done searching out the next best thing, what is meant to be will be, and if we are meant to do something with Luke then we will be lead down that path. Now this does not mean I am giving up all the therapies, but we are going to slow down somewhat. Luke loves going to school, and I know his teachers and aides believe in him, despite some behavior issues he has every now and then. So we will let him go to school like a normal kid, and concentrate on the speech and water therapy for now a few days a week. I am excited to say, we also have someone coming in a few afternoons a week to do some "homework" with Luke. I am very excited to have her coming, and think she will be great for Luke. So many people that look at Luke say he has everything it takes as far as mechanics go to be walking and talking. More than anything, Luke has to want it for it to happen. I can want it until I am blue in the face, but until he does we are getting nowhere. I have followed many, many kids on this journey with brain injuries. Some make miraculous improvements, others not so much, in the end, I can't really say I can attribute it to any one thing other than God's will. According to Jeremiah 29:11, He knows the plans he has for each of us, they are plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. May God's will be done in Luke. Thank you for continuing to follow his journey and pray for him!